I can’t wake people up. It’s impossible. I just can’t.
Not that I physically can’t. Just that…I can’t shatter a person’s tranquility.
Today, I took the shortest of naps. And the thing I liked most about it was not having any conscious. Which is weird. I didn’t know if I was a sleep or not, I didn’t know if I was alive or dead.
I was in a state of nothing…
and I liked it.
gonna try not to use the internet today…it’s really pissing me off.
Posted November 1, 2009 at 12:52pm
i promise that i will do something. i don’t know who i am promising, maybe myself, maybe you and maybe someone else, but i promise. i promise i promise.
you better!! : )
I just listened to the Pogues’s Red Roses for Me album. And it reminded me…of one night when Eric and I drove around listening to it. I had just gotten my license and I was driving my mom’s minivan and I would gun it every chance I got. And we went on all the back roads, and I would ask him whether he thought a certain song was a traditional song or an original one, and he always seemed to get it wrong. And I just I thought that I was going to be doing that a lot…driving around and listening to whole albums with a friend.
It’s funny how such a memory gets attached to music, and how vividly the memory returns..
But then again, that’s why I believe constantly getting new music is a necessity. It captures the times and feelings of your life..
A girl passed me today. We were going opposite directions. She passed me, and I got a huge whiff of something.
She smelled like celery…
Posted October 30, 2009 at 11:16am
All I feel is a dry sense of dread.
Posted October 29, 2009 at 5:17pm
Today is a cloudy, drab day. Relatively normal. But to my eyes there looks to be a thin layer of fog floating throughout the air. A thin layer of fog soaking and muddying up the air. But I don’t think anyone else notices it, it’s just me and my present state of mind.
Who is making my decisions for me? I don’t even know. It’s surely not me, because what I decided would be different. But who is controlling me, who is making these decisions??
